It all started when I drove to St. George with my performing group, mom, and voice teacher to perform for Tuacahn's Pre- Show. All the way down my voice teacher told everyone in the car stories about her mission and how much it blessed her life. I was about 12 or 13 at the time and I had never considered going on a mission. But in that car is where I first thought about going on a mission.
As we continued our trip I became acquainted with many sister missionaries.This was still when the sisters had to be at least 21 years old. I didn't think there were very many girls who served. There were a lot more than I thought. They were at many church historical cites such as Brigham Young's house. The more I talked with them the more convinced I was that I was going to go on a mission. They all seemed so happy and I couldn't help but be happy when I was with them. The spirit was so strong and I knew what they were doing was a worthy cause.
While I was down there my mom and I went to the Temple. We didn't go in we just walked around. (We did go in and do baptisms the next year) I then decided I wanted to serve in St. George. Of course I knew I couldn't choose but St. George is absolutely gorgeous and I love it there! It is one of my favorite places. I had amazing experiences both times I went.
"Today I am pleased to announce that able, worthy young women who have the desire to serve may be recommended for missionary service beginning at age 19, instead of age 21."
-President Thomas S. Monson
This sentence made me so excited when President Monson spoke at the October 2012 General Conference\about the Missionary Age Change. That meant that I could leave earlier. I am a planner and that made my life plan flawless.
I have always loved going to the Idaho Fall's Temple Visitors Center. I love chatting with the sister missionaries. They always help me to stay on track and to take a step back and look at the eternal perspective again. I want to be just like them. But now being just 10 months from turning 19 I am asking myself if I am really suppose to go on a mission. It may be nerves or the fact that I don't want to miss out on things going on here but it may be because my Heavenly Father has another plan for me. Sometimes I can tell if something is going to happen. It's just kinda a feeling I get but I have no idea of what is going to happen.
I was talking to a sister one day and she showed me this scripture.
Mosiah 4:9
Believe in God; believe that he is, and that he created all things, both in heaven and in earth; believe that he has all wisdom, and all power, both in heaven and in the earth; believe that man doth not comprehend all the things which the Lord can comprehend.
She asked me if I believed enough to not comprehend. That seemed like a weird question to me but the more I thought about it it was really profound. I have constantly been trying to plan my life out so strategically that I have not left any room for God to help me. Somethings I just have to back off and let things go as they are suppose to. If I have faith then everything will turn out the way it is suppose to. I just need to take a step back and let my Father in Heaven show me what I am suppose to do. Because I have enough faith to not comprehend everything he has in store for me. Time will tell if a mission is for me. And who knows maybe I will serve a different type of mission that isn't a formal mission but one that I will still be able to touch lives just as the sister missionaries have done for me.
You don't always need a name tag to be a missionary.
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